First of all, the question was not for you. It was for a significant other that you did not know about.
Secondly, I know not getting closure sucks, because there’s a whole part of my life that you don’t know about that is based off lack of closure.
Lastly- no, occasionally, yeah, and partially.
There are only 2 people in this world, other than my therapist, that I trust. I’ve attempted to open up to others but ‘others’ fuck it up. Did you think the letter would only be read by one person? Did you consider the possibility of the letter being copied and passed around? I’m going to stop myself there before I get pissed off all over again.
Also, I may have a mental illness, sure, but that is my business. That’s my thing to tell people when I feel like telling people. That’s my issue to deal with and share when I feel like sharing. If someone doesn’t know the context, they think I’m a fucking crazy person.
The relationship was sabotaged. I felt manipulated and violated, in ways I’ve felt before from past friendships that I ended. Uncontrollable panic attacks for two months afterwards? Yeah, you’re not the only one hurting.
You’re not a bad person. I just think you have a lot to learn. And I can’t be a part of that learning process.
In fact, you’re a very good person. You have the best intentions and are incredibly generous and loving. But sometimes acting on good intentions don’t produce good results. Consider all consequences, all points of view, all factors… but yes. You’re a good person. Life is a process. Don’t let one screw up ruin the rest of the process.
I’m broken down, not good enough
The broken promises add up to twice their weight in tears which I have caused
I’m afraid to sink, I’m afraid to swim
I’m sad to say I miss my friends
I know that I’m supposed to step away, but they need me to stay and keep a watchful eye on all my heroes and all their demons…
I wish I could lay down beside you when the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I’ve ever known, you’ll disappear one day
So I’ll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
I woke up feeling heavy hearted; I’m going back to where I started
And although I wish that you were near
That same old road that brought me here is calling me home.
One teacher’s brilliant hands-on explanation of how gravity works.
"I’m repairing a rip in the fabric of space-time"
Dear Heavenly Father,
Please give me the strength to study for my finals.